FIRST TIME LISTENING TO CONSTANCE BY SPIRITBOX - ROCK METAL REACTION WITH ERIKA

I don't think I'll ever get through this video without tearing up, it truly is beautiful...it was dedicated to both Courtney's and Dylan's Grandmothers...as you mentioned, Courtney was unable to attend her Grandmother's funeral because of lockdown...Dylan is the director of this video, as well as other Spiritbox videos...Dylan's Grandmother "Constance" suffers from alzheimers...the marrying of this song and these visuals is heartwrenching...also Courtney's Grandmother wasn't a fan of her harsh vocals, which is why Courtney sung clean only for this song

Try not to cry challenge. I cry every fucking time

This is a band that has got where they are without any mainstream support, thanks to SiriusXM for introducing me to this band, lost my mom some years back and never got to say goodbye, this song hits me every time.

This song is a masterpiece. Perfect example of how versatile Spiritbox is. But damn, there's no chance to watch this music video without dropping at least one tear. Such an emotional and hard hitting song. "Heavy" in a different way. Indeed, Courtney wrote this song for her grandmother. Her grandma never liked the screaming/growling vocals. That's why this song does not have them. The song and video were created hand in hand by Courtney and their video producer Dylan of Versa Films. Dylan's grandmother suffers from dementia which was addressed in the video. Her name is Constance. And unfortunetaly Courtney's gradmother passed away and Courtney was unable to say goodbye to her grandmother because of travel restrictions. It's so damn touching and heartbreaking... it somehow even feels so hard to write that down. Even if you yourself are not directly affected. But everything is so relatable. I can't thank Spiritbox enough for what they do. ♥ Loving your Spiritbox reactions :)

Hey that's me! Glad you did this one. It gets me every time. Beautifully tragic.

Oh shit.... Well it was inevitable. The story behind it is crushing. Spiritbox is something special.

The part of the video that kicked me the hardest was right after the family started disappearing. The shot lingers on the grandmother and for a split second at the end you can see her starting to fade. Devastatingly beautiful.

That was intense, beautiful, sweeping and heartbreaking. I must say that I couldn’t pay attention to the lyrics because the music had my whole attention! It felt as though it would grab my heart and take it to breaking point, then gently let it go, over and over. I love experiencing new music, especially with you my darling girl!! Your reactions are always genuine and heartfelt and I just love you babybear!! Thankyou for the new tune. ❤️😘❤️🥰❤️😘

I've never been able to watch this video without crying =\

To give a bit more context (which will likely make you cry even more if you watch it again): As you already know she wrote it for her grandmother, which died during the first lockdowns, making her unable to go an attend her funeral. Her grandmother always wanted her to sing at her funeral (without the monster voice), hence why this is all clean vocals. However, the video and title is actually dedicated to the grandmother of the video producer, Dylan, named Constance, which suffers from dementia. In the video you can see things starting to disappear in the background, symbolizing memories of her fading away and causing arguments within the family - it's also the reason why her family moves backwards & away from her, also fading away from her memories. You can also see Constance on the shown photo, which is blurred on the second take, because she does not recognize herself anymore. There's a comment from his father on the original video: "Constance is my mom. Today - December 4th is her birthday - she is 88. She is the nurse in the photo. She is in a long term care home and I have not seen her since early March of this year due to COVID-19. Unfortunately the press release is incorrect. Courtney’s grandmother died in 2020 and she wrote the beautiful lyrics to honor her grandmother. Dylan’s grandmother is still living and has been suffering from dementia for several years. Dylan created the video imagery to honor his grandmother and her struggles at this time in her life. Mom goes by Connie to those that know her. Today her proper name of Constance is more meaningful. Dylan from Versa Films is my son. I am thankful to Courtney and Spiritbox for having the courage to tackle a subject like this. Courtney: I am sorry for the loss of your grandmother. I am touched by the comments from everyone that has been through this. As the son, I know how it affects me - everyday seeing your mother not remember you. Counting the times she remembers your name. As parents we don't always see or realize the impact these circumstance and this disease has on the grandchildren. Dylan, Courtney and all the comments show that the pain runs deep within the families. For me it is tough to watch this video. It is harder to live with or to have lived with this in real life. Words cannot begin to describe. Thank you to everyone for their comments as hard as they were to publicly display. It's amazing Dylan. It's amazing Courtney. It's amazing Spiritbox. Constance is proud. I am proud." Check some reactions to this one if you can too. Some people got hit really hard by this one.

I've watched this video many, many times and it still breaks my heart.

I don't have my grandparents anymore, but its the little things that you remember and hold dearly that keeps their memory going and I remember alot of the things I did as a kid with my grandparents, those are the best memories I have of them

The visual team behind this music video was outstanding.. after I watched it for the first time its been about 4 months since I've seen the music video, how ever it just doesn't hit the same without the video.. of course.

I think you need to give this video another watch. Courtney wrote the song in honor of her grandmother who she lost and could not visit, due to COVID lockdowns. But the video was produced in parallel to Courtney's writing the lyrics, as the video's producer was dealing with his grandmother's battle with dementia. The visuals of the video symbolize the video producer's grandmother's fight with dementia, while the lyrics of the video outline Courtney's loss. The combination of those two, simultaneous losses make this video twice as heartbreaking.

Incredible reaction. This song always makes me cry.I Love spiritbox alot and courtney's voice is unreal and beautiful. I miss both of my grandparents every day. 🙏😪

I recently saw Spiritbox live and when this song played the emotions in the venue was so palpable.

Much love. Your reactions are awesome. I would love to see you react to Falling in Reverse - Popular Monster

- I always promised my grandmother that I would sing at her memorial service, because she always requested a "pretty song with none of that scary screaming" You did it, Courtney.

I lost both sets of grandparents, except for my father’s dad, to cancer in recent years. My grandma (also on my dad’s side) lived less than a mile away growing up in Montreal, and I’d ride my bike over there almost every day and spend the weekends over there as often as I could. When I moved to the states just before high school, the hardest part was losing that part of my life and hardly ever getting to see them anymore except for the few times I was able to go back and visit for a few weeks at a time. My Nana passed while I was still in the states and unable to go back home to Montreal to visit her before or after it happened. It’s my biggest regret, and the last time I spoke to her on the phone was when she was in the hospital and I realized halfway through the call that she thought I was someone else (partly due to the meds they had her on, partly due to her condition). Not being able to visit her one last time still hurts to this day. Definitely do not take anyone for granted, especially if you love them/they love you. You’ll never regret taking time to be with them & being a part of their lives, but you definitely will regret it if you don’t.

Anyone with experience of a loved one suffering from dementia feels this video like a gut punch. Its beautifully heartbreaking