Fentanyl Addict interview - John

Thank you everyone for your support I’m 7 months sober and really facing my demons right now

John is so much like my son. He had been in rehab for almost 14 months, got kicked out in July 2021. My wife and I have been married for over 41 years and he was 36, as our first son. Our child had been in rehab a number of times and we have tried everything humanly possible, but this last time we decided to do the tough love approach. We knew in our heart that he could make it through this tough patch in his life, we just knew it would work if he pulled himself up from a terrible situation. I believed that he could do it and finally he would be a success against heroin and crack. And he was a success against his historical adversaries. He died 9/6/2021 with no heroin or crack in his system, but he had Meth and Xanax in his system and had a cardiac arrest and never again woke up. His kidneys saved two lives, a 21 year old woman, and a 27 year old woman with a child. I’m typing through my tears, and sincerely hope John is able to succeed where my son did not, and I hope John’s mother and father never ever have to see their beautiful son in a coffin like I saw my son. God Bless you John and keep fighting hard!!!

"I had a pretty good childhood..." Also.... I was raised by strangers that didn't speak English, and I didn't have many friends, and my parents weren't around... No, you were neglected and didn't get your basic needs met. You deserved unconditional love and attention from your parents. Period. I wish you healing and love!

I just lost my son to fentanyl overdose 1 month ago. Watching this has helped me understand his demons a little bit more. Thank you for your transparency and honesty. It helped me as I try to understand what was going on in his beautiful, edgy and complicated mind.

The worst part is, it sounds like this young man just wanted his parents to spend more time with him.

“Knocked over a vase turned out to be plastic didn’t even break.” 😭😭😭😭 certain parts of this interview was hilarious. In all seriousness I pray this man finds sobriety and healing.

I love how Mark just let’s these people talk and doesn’t interrupt. He lets them tell their stories completely unfiltered

I really admire his brutal honesty. I hope he can find peace within himself, emotional neglect is an awful thing to suffer.

Emotional neglect is a thing. You can have "rich" parents but still be neglected emotionally.

the amount of people who know john is INSANE. this man might be the main character doing the side quests 😂😂😂

The emotional neglect part is definitely overlooked. Speaking as a former heroin addict of 10+ years I can say that my family upbringing and the culture I grew up in were the main catalysts for my addiction. I was never physically or even verbally abused. I grew up in an upper middle class family with plenty of financial opportunity. I had siblings and cousins that got into trouble so there wasn't even a black sheep in the family. To be singled out as that even, would've felt unique and given me some sort of identity in my teens. My parents were there but what I lacked was a strong family bond, a guiding father who I could talk to about anything, strong family traditions, and even a family dog! I had to search for excitement and meaning in life. My family life was substance-less, unenriched, and uninteresting. I was an emotional kid and felt things strongly and wanted to hash things out and talk deeply about anything and everything. I craved strong connection. Not having this left me feeling listless. I think that's why I, and so many others can relate to Dislocation Theory. Thank God I found things like music, reading, comedy, interesting and funny friends, and some family members to lift my spirits. One does not necessarily have to have a fucked up family, sometimes it's as simple as not having a strong enough emotional bond, because in the end family is everything. I wish you luck John.

Whoah!😻 John is F-I-N-E! Never expected to see someone really attractive, charismatic, talented & intelligent on this channel! I really hope he is still sober!🙏🏼❤️

I was in rehab with John. Guys a trip. Glad to see him alive and cognitive

I know John personally from when we both lived in Charlotte. John is so talented! He didn’t even mention this, but not only is he an artist with music but he is incredibly gifted at drawing/painting too. He has so many talents dude. It’s sad watching him slowly screw his life up when I know he could go so damn far if he cared to. I don’t think the damage of hanging around the wrong ppl is talked about enough.

I could remember few years ago fentanyl addiction actually destroyed my life. I suffered severe depression and mental disorder. Not until my wife recommended me to psilocybin mushrooms treatment. Psilocybin treatment saved my life honestly. 3 years totally clean. Never thought I would be saying this about mushrooms.

we’re so proud of you!! sobriety is a journey and can take many attempts, so don’t forget to give yourself the grace you deserve. we’re all rooting for you dude!!!

Emotional neglect is a very deep trauma. You can have money, food, house etc. But if no one at home sees you, spends time with you, talks with you about your problems and understands you, then it is extremely hurtful. Wish you all the best on your recovery <3

I would love to see an interview on parents of addicts like John.

I saw your comment from a few months ago... I hope you're still doing well, John. I watch these videos, and I root for so many of you struggling with addiction. I'm still rooting for you.💜

2 minutes in and my heart is already breaking for this guy - Childhood neglect is one of those childhood traumas that goes way under the radar in society. An unseen, unfelt heart of a child destroys them. He says he doesn't want to play the victim however as a child he was a victim, he was a victim of neglect and thats what he will need to grieve. He will need to grieve (not wallow in self pity) how unloved he felt in his childhood. Will power will only take you so far and it will seemingly override the deep issues, but ultimately the deep grief and pain from childhood will need to be felt, and thats not playing victim mode.