if I had a button to restart my life (playlist)

BEST tracks from my channel on a SPOTIFY playlist: spoti.fi/4aH2Phn (Daily updated)

I didn't think I will live this long, I thought I be dead in my teens or 20s, but I'm still here. So I was meant to be here then. No matter what I must keep pushing forward.

I hate that I'm only a 11 year old in 5th grade, and I am already experiencing too much. I experienced S/A, losing friends, being physically, and mentally hurt, and more. I don't get it, I feel like I am being dramatic, but it hurts. I just wanna go back to my good times, and not experience this anymore. I tried everything to feel the same happiness like back then, but nothing works. All my friends who were in my good times are drifting away, losing the interests we loved during our memorable times. I been crying every night, dying to see my good times again and it won't ever come again. My best friend who helped me through things since kindergarten is probably moving away next year to a new state, and she won't come back til she's an adult. I just want everything to end, and I wanna restart to the first day where my good times began. Please, I'm begging.

Defenitely someone needs to know this: i love your smile i love your laugh i love your personality i love your hair (or lack thereof) i love your insecurities i love your accomplishments i love your failures i love your eyes i love your beauty i love your handwriting (or the way you communicate) i love the way you dance i love you on your happy days i love you on your sad days i love you on the days you feel lonely i love you on the days you feel helpless i love you on the days you feel like no one cares i love you on the days you feel forgotten i love you on the days you feel unmotivated i love you on the days you feel loved i love you on the days you feel sick i love you on the days you feel motivated i love you on the days you feel depressed i love you on the days you feel stresses i love you on the days you feel crazy i love you on the days you feel hopeful i love you on the days you feel cuddly i love you on the days you feel clingy i love you on the days you feel amazing i love you on the days you feel beautiful i love you on the days you feel like a failure i love you on the days you feel angry i love you on the days you feel aggressive i love you on the days you feel horrible i love you on the days you feel safe i love you on the days you feel unsafe i love you on the days you feel vulnerable i love you on the days you feel weird i love you on the days you feel ok i love you when you're healthy i love how you sing (or hum or feel the music) i love your taste in music i love your taste in movies i love your taste in tv shows i love the way you move i love the way you act i love you when you cry i love you when you're kind i love you when you're mean i love you when you're alone i love you when you can't feel i love you when you feel too much i love you when you can't take life anymore i love you when you feel like it's too much i love you when you're asleep i love you when you have nightmares i love you when you have dreams i love how you believe i love you when you believe in yourself i love you when you don't believe in yourself i love you when you hate yourself i love you when you love yourself i love the way you think i love you problems i love your solutions i love how you support i love you when you're in pain i love you when you're hurt i love your promises i love your secrets i love your attitude i love you sass i love your creativity i love your voice (or lack thereof) i love you hand gestures i love your stories i love your wounds i love your scars i love your face i love your past i love your future i love your present i love your outfits i love your style i love your art i love your honesty i love you when you lie i love you when you're tired i love you when you're energetic i love how you look i love how you cook i love you when you're adventurous i love you when you're scared i love your imperfections i love your perfections i love you when you worry i love you when you talk (or communicate) i love your opinions i love you when you have a headache i love you when you have a stomach ache i love you when you help others i love you when you need help i love you when you're mature i love you when you're immature i love you in the hard times i love you in the easy times i love you when life is meh i love you when you're responsible i love you when you're irresponsible i love you when you fight i love you in your darkest moments i love you in your brightest moments i love your heart i love you in the day i love you in the night i love you at midnight i love you at 3 am i love you at all times i love you at your best i love you at your worst i love the little things you do i love all of you i love you when you're you i love 𝙮𝙤𝙪. (not mine but pass it around, everyone deserves🫶)

Even though time passes since that day, the pain does not go away.

you know a playlist boutta be fire when it starts with poison tree

Lets just appreciate Navo and thank him for these playlists, lets also think about one thing "Is Navo doing fine?"

I was living a fairly decent life with some regrets but overall content. But between late 2019 - late 2020, I was hit by so many crises (HUGE personal/career failures, pandemic, WAR) that I’m convinced I have been plunged into alternate reality and will wake up one morning back in my true universe. I know it sounds loopy but it’s the hope and the pre-2020 memories that keep me going.

I've lost everything, and I've made terms with the fact I'm slowly losing myself too. no matter what I do, life seems to drain and target me. No matter how nice or mean I am that day, life always bites me in the back and I'm straining myself from utter misery. I would like to see my friends at least once more before I go, but we moved, and even if I were to visit, I know even them, would hate what I am now. I know I promised myself I'd make it to 18, just one more year but I cannot do no more of my parents, school, health, life in general. I was not made for handling the harshness of life, and I don't want to be a waste to those who are.

Normally, I give advice under these videos, but I can only think of one thing. "If I had a button to restart my life, I would rewire it to end my life."

listening to music like this is honestly very soothing but also makes me rethink a lot about my life. sometimes i wonder why im alone. sure i may like being alone majority of the time, but sometimes i want some company too you know? but even then, it’s hard to even get close to someone when you’ve tried so many times. i’m tired, im exhausted, im mentally drained and i can’t even find myself. i could ramble for days on how this is all affecting me, but then i’d be selfish huh? if you’ve read this far on my little dumb thoughts, i just want to say thank you and i hope that things go really well for you. if you’re going through anything then im praying you’re able to get through it. 🙂

The first song makes me feel like I'm searching for someone far away in my thoughts, sometimes wanting to cuddle and smile at the same time. Maybe I lost she in a past that doesn't come back and if come back do she won't be there anymore

a lump in one's throat a tight feeling in the throat that a person gets when about to start crying or when trying not to cry

Ever hurt someone who genuinely loved you over 10yrs ago and now it’s music like this this that always makes you think about them? Just me? Ok.

So far, my depression has left me alone for around 3-4 months. Though sometimes I wonder how. I'm in 6th grade, I'm 12, and I would have killed myself if I hadn't found Kurt Cobain. Now I WANT to live, and become a music artist like Kathleen Hanna, Kurt Cobain, or Evan Thomas. These playlists help me think about what my dad did to me, and it makes me wonder if my mom would have married him if she knew how he'd turn out.

Thx you so much for re-uploading this❤️❤️

" one day, i'm gonna be a memory "

every day it's always the same. i don't feel like my life has a meaning- why does everyone else know exactly what they want to do? everyone else has a purpose, except for me. i'm just flitting through life, trying to survive. the smallest feather floating on top of the most stormy seas. i will wait for the future, for something better to come. i'm always waiting, but i don't know what i'm waiting for. when will my life have a purpose?

i just want to be happy again.

thanks